posting because...

i think i haven't posted in a long while. nothing much to say really, except to thank God for being truly present in my exams even. no, i'm not saying that i'm going to ace every paper, that's not the point (and no i don't think i'm going to ace every paper lest you're wondering). the point is i guess i'm discovering for myself that it's really the process that's important as well. it's sad that society robs the pleasure of the process in almost everything we do. ie, you can love studying for a subject, love learning it, but the exam grade robs you off your love, and even solely determines your capability for it. i remember i used to argue with tania about this. how the process isn't important, although we know it should be, it isn't because of what the world sees- results. i'm learning, and it's seeing things and believing them. i'm a slow learner, can't help it lah, not very bright i am!

have to write about CS, because i think the whole process has helped me to discover so much more about God, myself, my walk. it was a gradual process of first adsorbing, and then absorbing the truths that were presented. still learning, but this isn't learning by the head, by route-processes, it's learning with the heart- conviction from the heart. thanks for this opportunity, for CS, despite me thinking whether i should go for something like this (the word healing got me a bit scared). but don't we all need healing and restoration in this world that seeks so much to tear down than to build up?

better snooze, so here's my post! many a times i do wonder whether what i post affects the people reading them. because these words portray me (or at least a part of). if you ask me why i blog, there are different reasons for different occasions. for this instance, it'll be gratitude that i want to share with you folks. in case you're wondering, that's me. i think quite a bit, don't just type type type and click 'post'. i can't because i know everything said has consequences- big or small.

and it's the same with any prose.

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