i wonder what is the purpose of my blog. some people blog to exhort their feelings and thoughts out loud, some blog because everyone's doing is, and yet others blog just for the sake of blogging. the last case would be quite a broad spectrum,

1) people who don't really think much about blogging in general, so they just type type and type away furiously on their keyboard.
2) people whom blogging has become a habit to, that they feel uneasy when they do not blog or something to that extent.

while, like everything else people may do it for a mixture of reasons, i'm quite sure for the majority we can safely classify ourselves into 1 major reason. for me it'll be the last case out of the 3 i listed, and the sub-catergory 2.. at least for this blog. however the reason i feel uneasy would be because this blog has been around for so long, there's so responsibility to the 'faithful readers' if ever there are any.

so advanced apologies for rather superficial or ambiguous posts. you definitely won't find things like, 'i am very sad today...', the feeling of uneasiness in displaying public emotion just keeps my overwhelming (if there's any) emotions in check so i'll think twice/ thrice/ quadruple before typing away blindly.. i hate the fact that this blog is traceable by search engines, and whatever that i may say can be held against me by people who were not my target audience for the relevant posts. yes i think a lot, think too far in fact (for a future that is uncertain), so maybe this is the greatest insight you can get from this post - a character trait of the blogger... or wait, is it even the alleged author writing? one can never be too sure right? haha.

i've got a livejournal though, http://blithey.livejournal.com/. so if you too are looking for a blog with some privacy, try switching to it.. and those whom i know well do add me as a friend - and i will in turn add you back. the good thing about it is that you can customise even among your friends, who would be allowed to view a particular entry, hooray to that!

in case you might be wondering, why then do i still blog since i seem so jaded with respect to the blogging scene? because i still view it's a great way to let the people you care - friends, family, know what is happening in your life, your struggles, your hurts.. it's like a personal email but sent to the many people you care about.