it seems that pressing on is so difficult, releasing hurt again and again is tough - why is it so difficult to let go?

despite knowing for sure that we know we'll drown for sure carrying 200kg weights and trying to swim, an illustration by wendywatson on her sermon today. and the oddest thing is this entry is not in any way sparked off from her sermon.. i guess her sermon came as a timely reminder, because the more i want to move forward, i truly find myself being held back by reasons that just seem to hop out of no where. something like finding hope, trying to move out of the pit and having stones thrown down from nowhere, because when you were happily in the pit, no stones were thrown... (if you get my lousy illustration)

but i stand firm, and honestly more of a post to me than to others, that even through adversity - or seeming ones, to press on nonetheless..

oddly my itunes is spinning 'letting go' by jeremy camp as i'm writing this post.