today's a heck of a day (in a way).

woke early at around 930am as my dental appointment was at 10. oddly even though i slept at 2plus, and have been averaging 6 (+-) hours of sleep for this week, but somehow i don't feel as tired as i should (used to be pretty lethargic). really praise God for that, for those atheist, you have to thank someone when you find renewed strength, for me that's my God. anyway back to dental...

so it was really crappy because i was waiting super long, and then this number which was after mine appeared. obviously i was wondering did they miss my number or something like that, and so i went to ask the newbie receptionist, and she could not provide a decent reason. and replied with something like 'the doctor has only 1 patient on the waitlist'. i was like HUH?! and just walked off pretty cheesed off.

so when i got to see my dear dentist, i exclaimed that she was pretty busy today. and i think she got quite offended because she thought i was being sarcastic (crap la, i think i sound sarcastic even when i'm not, as just confirmed by bong). so she said that i complained out there. i was quite taken aback and irked. firstly it reiterated that service in public services really suck (thought obviously there are rare gems), and it's pretty sad to see that people don't give 100% to their job. i mean if i were the service officer, and i know i'm new and i know the customer didn't understand me, i would have tried harder to explain, or even gone up to explain.

and worst still, tell my dentist that i complained possibly against her (the dear dentist). seriously, if i had anyone to complain against, it would be her. anyway even if i filled up their feedback form, i don't think they'll take it seriously. they probably put those forms there for show only. 'hey we welcome your feedback, fill it up but we'll probably just chuck it in the bin, thanks for wasting your time filling the form up'.. something like that.

anyway all good between my dentist and me, anyway don't know why i wrote so much about that silly clerk, when i should have just gone to this:

it's been 4 years seeing my dentist, 4 years... sec4, j1, j2, j3 and now j4. time really flies, when i first visited she was only a dental officer, now she's a registrar, and has moved up to level 5. and i wonder what will happen in another 4 years, will i finally be in the midst of pursuing my dreams? will i be taking med? i don't know. who knows...

drove to school today. had trouble finding parking, but somehow i manage to find in the end when i ask, again i am so grateful. it's hard finding parking at 1plus in the afternoon. and guess what, mrs tay you'll be so proud of me! i actually understood and did 4 out of 5 physics questions. it's physics for goodness sake! i am just so glad i tried to understand this time instead of just copying for the sake of handing in, cos i did understand, and when you understand you just feel good.

my tennis match, yep i joined the novice open singles because there wasn't enough participation for doubles (only 2 teams! gosh). didn't even complete a game and had to stop due to weather - intermittent rain, plus i had to leave by 7. rushed home, traffic was a real killer back home, and to ywca.

here's one of the songs i picked for worship, i reallu like it, not because it's catchy and nice to sing and easy to remember, but because it's really so true. whenever i sing it or hear the lyrics carefully, i think of how lousy our world is, and that true home is heaven.

i'm created for you alone
bought with the price, i'm not my own
i'm seated in the heavenlies
and there's no place i'd rather be,
than with You forever Lord

You are my treasure

and whenever i get caught up with my worldly desires - big house, big car, lots of quid. this song, just speaks and draws me back. why do i want things that 'moth and rust consume' instead of treasures up in heaven? makes all the sense in the world, this song.

the song sang in 'walking in the lux sermon' by wendy watson

you are the sunshine of my life
that why I'll always be around
you are the apple of my eye
forever you'll stay in my arms

and how right it is to reply to God with,
ditto.

i feel like this is the beginning
though i've loved you for a million years
and if you thought our love was ending
i find myself drowning in my own tears

... how could so much love be inside of You?

but i know it's so hard, gosh it's unspeakably hard, but i guess some things you just have to press on.

anyway i should be gone now. shall attend my 930 lect tomorrow.