"she was running low in faith and gasoline...
before she knew she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
she saw both their lives flash before her eyes...
she threw her hands up in the air
Jesus take the wheel, take it from my hands
cos i can't do this on my own, i'm letting go,
so give me one more chance,
to save me from the road i'm on..." -'Jesus take the wheel' by carrie underwood

how often do we foolishly think we can steer the wheel on our own? for me, quite many times. and most of the time without myself even knowing it.

listening to the song, pastor wendy watson's sermon, 'walking in the lux' came to mind. we find ourselves spinning out of control when we hit 'black ice'.

when times get too hard, why do we choose the futile effort to be in control. because it's simply easier... this entry is mostly to me actually, to let God take the wheel, because it's a sure fact i won't be able to navigate on my own.

as human, we've physical limitations, if there's heavy fog and icy weather, we just cannot see beyond a few feet in front of us, and we just skid out of control...

and even when there's times when we can't seem to feel God, to truly cling on in to Him nonetheless, for that's what i'm trying to do. logically if it's something so hard to do, i should let go, but i don't... and sometimes even i remind myself because i don't that it's also a reason why i should carry on.