i lost my tennis match.

it was pretty bad in a sense. i could blame it on a cumulation of factors, but i think the sole source of this failure would be myself. oddly, disasters are always a series of factors that lead up to the big crash, maybe it's the same in my case?

i think i strained my shoulder while happily napping, accentuated by using the same muscles in my tennis match straight after. though i know i can't put the blame on that, definitely. basically if i want to go out there and win matches, i have to have a level of constancy, that even if i'm off-form i'll still come up with a good game.

and my partner was nice enough to say that it was cos i wasn't on form that's why she won. she definitely deserves more credit than that for winning. i'm glad you won, i just thought we met a round too early.

sigh, i think i used to be closer to my doubles partner than now. we're in the same school, but it's so big, and i think we don't talk much also. well, we all move on. can't just keep thinking of how everyone used to be together in jc, secondary school. but i guess it gets quite bad when your uni life kind of sucks, when you're so busy with you don't even know what, and that you're losing touch with the friends you really care about.

i'm glad i have my small group though. i sincerly hope we will grow stronger in faith as a group. that we will open up more, gradually... that we will each look forward to our weekly meetings every first 3 thursday of the month... that we will be there for each other when we stumble at certain points.

it sure feels good letting it out. i should go study my biochem now. i just really pray with all my heart and everything i've got, right down to the very atoms in me, that i will finally acheive what i've been dreaming about after these 3 years.