thinking about one particular daily bread reading. it was about moments when we think that God isn't there for us, that we look back on how in the past, how he has pulled us out of trouble, how he has been there for us. knowing that, we know he has, and never will abandon us.

right now i'm thinking about how screwed i was this time of the year, last year. then the talk with ct, it wasn't extraordinary, but it made my direction all clear again. all the pressue and stress fogged up my life, and my normally logical train of thought. she gave me rough guides to plan my time well, to calm my much fettered heart, because at that moment in time i was thoroughly petrified.

i vowed to never be in such a precarious position ever again. yet, here i am, wasting my life away.

it just seems to me that when 1 aspect of my life is going well, the rest would be too.

i don't want a wasted life to be solely my doing. i better come up with a life plan, so i would busy myself with activities. it seems to me that the less time i have, the more productive i become. it's like an exponential curve with respect to 1/time.

everyone seems to know i love my gloria jeans chai tea. i really do! ct bought me a pack when she was in perth. i'm so touched.. first it was ming ming who surprised me with my first pack. talking about ming, i miss you sooooo much, the gloria jeans chai although very yummy, cannot hold a candle to you! (obviously)

i'm glad eve and ming are having quite a good time overseas. they make me feel that i'm missing out on so much because my uni life is really quite bland. i need to spice it up, because it's only my freshie year and i'm quite sian of school already.

i've got a physics test on friday, and to be honest i think i'll really get 0.