whirl

there has been a lot of things in my head lately, not that there isn't anything before. what i'm trying to say is somehow i've been introspecting my life and just thinking things through. by all means i did not purposely force myself into an introspection, but rather because of little events unfolding in my life, although subtle, but enough to make me think things through.

there are just so many questions that i'm asking myself, like,

what the am i doing with my life?

what do i really want to do?

and spiritual questions, and somehow i just can't answer them, and i'm just...

lost

the easiest way to solve anything is by escapism, but why would i want to try to push these questions aside when i know for sure they'll come back to haunt me in the near future?

i feel like talking to ct, but what right do i have to impinge my problems onto others?

i should just stuff whatever i have down the bottle, perhaps there's still a lot of space in there.