blowing up

can someone strangle me. my tuition kid is pushing me to my limit. don't get me wrong, he's not some really naughty kid that is incredibly hard to control and teach. it's just that i think he's just too lax, and the way he's going, i think he might even just fail his paper. i don't what that to happen obviously, it's not about the money anymore, it's about responsibility. everything he just keeps on cancelling tuition, saying that there's something else last minute. i really want to tell him to organise his time in a better way. just that i don't know how to phrase it nicely, and that even if i could, nice messages usually don't hit you in the skull. it's those criticisms, scoldings that really wack you in the head, and jolt your senses.

enough of that. maybe i haven't done enough as a tutor, maybe i've been to slack. but i just though he's the type that doesn't like authority, if i go 'hey here i'm your high and mighty tutor', that would so turn him off. he might just hate learning altogether...

and another person just made me irritated. i wanted to be nice and reply saying it's my fault that i didn't remind her. i mean, nowadays i really do swallow my pride in order to maintain a friendship. but crap, i just couldn't for this one, somehow it went against my principles. we all have our responsibilites to each other, i think you should have told me you couldn't make it, instead of blaming it on time.

enough said, my plans for the day seem to be totally ruined. i just hope it gets better, somehow.