what's not meant to be

went for the aussie uni fair today. crap man, out of the few unis that offer undergrad med, some require physics on top of chem. yep, bio's not needed, which really leaves me wondering how 'physics' medicine actually is when there's stuff like cytology and histology which seems far more bio than physics. so actually instead of going through the trouble to take bio, i should have just taken phy, chem, econs and math, urghhh, no point regretting anything now anyway.

me and grace concluded we should have been born 2/ 3 years later. cos we both can do both science and arts, it's like 'jack of all trades, master at none'. that way i'll be able to take lit on top of my science combi, and probably do chao well in it... i didn't get my a1 in lit for nothing la!

anyway, did i mention there's this big part of me that tells me i won't be going abroad somehow? so i think i'll be stuck here in singapore, which isn't that bad provided i can at least get into the science faculty somehow. urghhh, but science is not my first choice, not my true desire, but i guess what's not meant to be is not meant to be no matter how hard you try. when everything you do just comes to naught, i guess you know that thing's not meant for you. so the revelation about whether i'll be able to do what i view as my 'calling' will be out in around a month's time.

then again, i might be meant to do it, just that i'll take a longer time...

oh well, i don't know, i really don't.

my eyes are shouting: 'tired, tired!', brain's saying the same thing, so i guess i'll just leave this post hanging here.

good midnight to all. -yawn-