faith

somehow this question has surfaced again somehow and this entry is dedicated to the people out there stuggling with this problem. i once thought (among many other thoughts), if i had to choose between my faith and a love relationship, what would i choose? obviously this isn't a fair question, so let's put in a context here. if i'm crooked, who would mean more to me, my Saviour or my 'love'? the catch here is the word crooked. because i know it's wrong to indulge in homosexuality by the faith i practice. somehow at that point in time my answer was i would estrange myself in my faith. that was in the past, and yes i am ashamed of my choice then, for i was too weak to not indulge in something that would seem so sweet.

which brings me to what i want to talk about today. i really laud homosexuals who practice abstinence because of their faith. i, for one can almost imagine how hard it is to say,

Yes Lord, Yes Lord, Yes Yes Lord

all the way.

to all straight people out there, i wish to tell you that a homosexual relationship is no different from the normal boy-girl relationships. like any relationship, it's so hard to pull away when you feel that there could be progress or when there's chemistry, worst still to break off from a deep romance you've sunken into.

it's not easy, no one ever said it was for any relationship, because emotions, feelings, and all things soft are involved.

yes, it's so easy to get hurt.

and yet, people would rather suffer for their faith, for something intangible to many.

i was never in a ggr relationship, so my entry might only touch the tip of the iceberg. but i've liked a girl before, and it was no different from liking a guy, feelings wise. and that is why i really laud those that are able to abstaine from indulging in homosexual relationships because they chose their faith over their desires.