failed attempt

i did attempt to come up with that 'greatest posts' thing but the draft i so painstakingly did and saved was blank. probably do it again some other time 'cos it's really arduous to copy and paste the entry i want. finding it is the greatest problem actually, it's like looking for a needle in a haystack.

did i mention my sis got me a temporary job at her friend's company, for around 2-3 days. i know i told a couple of people that i'll probably be working for my dad, but that's no hurry la. i think the bigges thing i hate about a job is that i would have no control over my time, somewhat impeding my new-found freedom. sadly, this freedom also leaves me feeling quite bored at times, so it's quite a dilemma... what to do, i'm a weird kid, i've always known i'm a weird kid anyway.

another pt is i really do not want an admin job, i want to do something more interesting to me, like relief teaching. but, the schools don't seem to be short of teachers for once. maybe i should call them up again and ask whether any teacher is going on maternity leave. how can this be? ij had like a gazillion relief teachers, some just did their As, so it's quite impossible to believe that suddenly there's no shortage of teachers, at all.

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ten immediate thoughts

i'm very scared i'll do badly for As, very very very...

i still miss school, yes i actually miss ny, i think it's 'cos i'm too bored.

my money is depleting like how water runs through the gaps in your fingers.

i still want to do med very very very much.

i'm believing in Him more than ever.

i hope to be in a sane state of mind each time i wake up.

i think studying isn't that bad when your have no exams to sit for.

i will re-sit my As if need be.

i think tones is right, 1 year is not a lot though it might seem to be at my age.

if asked for a definite ans on why i want to do med, i don't, gut feel maybe, but there's something in me that is so overwhelmed somehow.