i flopped my bio pract. don't know why, was it because i wasn't focused enough? didn't know my stuff well enough? wasn't confident enough?

what the heck was lacking???

what the fuck am i lacking?

i don't believe it was a really hard pract. maybe it's just a pract tt's beyond my ability, ie i'm not of A level standard to do an A level paper.

won't dwelve too much into that matter, it's done, it's over, all i can do is look forward with a gut-wrenching feeling.

but somehow thoughts like, maybe it's just meant to be this way, maybe i'm not meant to be lucky during this As and get results i don't really deserve? maybe i'm not meant to take med anywhere.

then tell me why i have the desire to?

reminds me of the song 'if you're not the one' by daniel bedingfield:

'if i'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that i am?'

i'm trying real hard to get this lousy pract outta my head, but it's not easy. don't worry tho, i'll use the anger evolved to drive me to study for the core paper.

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anyway i'm so touched, to ms choo (aka 'mum'), pris, fern, ps, mr lim (aka 'dad') sent encouraging msgs, or simple reminders about today's pract.

it's truly the little things that warm your heart...