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that's about the amount of sleep i got this morning. had bad cramps and my mind just couldn't stop thinking about stuff, inconsequential stuff, yet very consequential -> depends on your piorities i guess.

maybe i'll go back to sleep soon, but i take pleasure in being in a conscious state of mind; sleepy but it makes me feel so human, so vulnerable, so limited. not saying i felt the opposite before, it's just that i feel more of all the aforementioned feelings and emotions. sounds weird eh, someone's like going 'hey i feel good feeling so so small'. it's a different perspective i guess, looking at things from a different point of view, feeling less in control of everything around us.

i hope i'm making sense. well, each to his own i guess... even if no one gets what i'm saying, i do, that's all that matters.