monday

today was a little different from other mondays - i had chinese, after chem pract that is. well, there were apparently no available classrooms so me, daryl and chen lao shi had our lesson outside the library (got a few chairs and a table there). halfway through there were some barbaric guys laughing (at us), i mean, yea it sucks to take chinese especially when 99.99999% of the level has dropped it, but my chinese sucks la and lady luck wasn't on my side with the mcq. btw, i bet i'd beat them in gp hands down if i really want to, they can kiss my sorry ass man. so here's a warning, 1) don't laugh at people struggling with a (foreign) language, esp if the language is something like CHEENAESE, i'll ring your throats and box your guts out, i'm serious, people who do 1) are just peevish kindergarden kids who still pee in their nappies, in fact i shouldn't even relate you people to kindergarden kids, as much as a abhor them, they still have a slight tinge of cuteness (when they're quiet) and angelic at times.

okay enough, no idea why the 'uproar' over such a small, teeny, weeny thing, maybe i just am sick and tired of chinese, having to take it when i want to focus on my 3As, just totally sucks. and i guess even a little laughter or chortle can really rub salt to my wounds.

anyway, walked out of school with ms choo today, was pretty hilarious, cos i was walking behind her then i called her and she only responded 5s later => wols? anyway she was talking about how everything would go down if we don't study, she has this incredible ability to make the situation seem utterly dire. say i want an A for bio, is it possible? i know it might seem as a joke but i've always wanted 3As, even now, maybe it was because of my goal in the past, not saying that i don't intend to pursue it if i'm given the chance, but my attitude towards that ambition has been more subtle now, one of if i'm meant for it, i'll get it juxtaposed to the 'die die must get' perception. so i told myself to settle (okay it should be settle but work for) for 2As and a B, but something inside me is fighting back, wanting me to get 3As, geez...

anyways met fern and attempted to do crv at bk novena but it was a futile attempt, didn't even complete 1 question. grace came at around 5 and we just sat there and talked crap, fern left for home at 5.30pm. anyway fern's new nickname is wang(4) en(1) and i'm supposedly fu(4) yi(4), you know the chinese 4 words thingy wang en fu yi.

i told myself i'd pull up my socks after midyrs, hope i'll have the stamina to pull through and that it won't die off after a short while.

so i'm back home after walking what seemed like a gazillion miles from novena square to united square and inside united square and back to novena square. oh yep, passed grace her long overdue letter which i wrote to her during my bio exam => you better be glad i used my exam time to write to you! oh yes, wanted to write another one to eve but darnit i only had 6 minutes left with 0 sheets of paper left. oh ya, about my lousy bio grades, everything would have been fine except for stewpid mcq, it's like i got 16.5/60 for biodiversity option, 18/100 for my structured and essay core paper, and i had to get a stupid 28/40 for my mcq. i seriously wanted to get a darn low f cos i think it's darn stupid to get 30 which is also a f and so darn near to an o, but no because of mcq i had to get a stupid 31 instead of my desired 10-20 odd marks, bummer. so now i regret not even flipping through my notes and getting an o. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, not a nice feeling i tell you. these are one of those rare times you won't want to get a decent grade for mcq.

so now i'm stuck with 2 high fs - 30 and 31 respectively and what is wrong with stupid stupid me, i know it's only 1 mark difference but darnit i seriously worked harder for math, considering i did like 3 topics revision compared to biodiversity. crap man, i expected at least an o for math!

ok, no idea why i rambled on about my dumb midyrs, irritated at myself i suppose.

history will not repeat itself.