tuesday

i know i shouldn't be thinking about what happened on tuesday. you must have meant it as a casual remark, but somehow it did reveal your opinion about me. i mean, i know i do appear flippant, sloppy even (at times) and thoroughly indolent but that doesn't mean i don't care or i don't pay attention. i know i'm guilty of not listening at times, sleeping and being unbothered. but crap, it's not as if i don't care about everything and anything. i do, i'm very sure i do. sheesh, those words were just slightly harsh... so i suppose i can improve on my attitude and appear as though i'm intently listening, but somehow i just can't help being reminded of what you said on tuesday, especially after today's lesson.

i know it wasn't your words only, i suppose i have faced this problem before, people making me out to be something i'm not, i know it's cos they care and cos of that i don't ever hate them for saying what they said. it's just my stupid nature, character, it's like imbued for me to appear like a true sucker, sigh...

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anyway here's the time to be real determined, i have the motivation, now i need the self-discipline and determination to get my desired grades.