career seminar

i still remember evelyn showing off her freebies from her school's career seminar. i was half expecting some sort of free stuff too... sad to say, my career sem consisted of just 2 talks. at the end of it all, i realised i already knew about the stuff the speakers talked about. like it would take a person 12 years to actually start on a career as a doctor. but, if given a chance to choose whether i'll skip it, i won't. because what one speaker said really jolted me, that the cycle of life continues, whether you're a gynae or a oncologist. if your the former, you might bring life into this world everyday, but if you're the latter, you would probably see much more of your patients passing on. but, whether you're delivering babies or certifying deaths, the cycle of life still goes on, it's just which part of the action you're in. it's hard to be surrounded with doom and gloom, but someone has to do the job, and that's what medicine is about - a noble calling.

what makes medicine so special is, there's no other job that enables you to save lives, to alleviate pain if the former cannot be done. it is about doing your best to save humanity in what little way you can. at the same time, it makes it apparent to you the limits of being mortal - you can only try your best to save lives but you do not have the absolute power to do so.

right now all i can do is work towards my goal, no use regretting about past choices and mistakes, forge foward like never before. if it is my calling, let me be one, if it's not, i hope what is would be revealed in due course.