these few days has been rather 'pek chek' or should i say one filled with irritation, anger, fear, trepidation, all stuffed into a big pot and mixed together. first it was my chem test, i fared better than most people in my class and i should not be lamenting (some people might add) but the thing is i felt that i let myself down, for i made really retarded mistakes. teachers always talk about how they can vomit blood when they mark students' work, i really felt like vomitting blood when i saw my own paper... it was that bad. next was chinese, it's bad enough being the only idiot in your chinese dominated class (filled proportionally with more chinese compared to other races) retaking chinese. it really sucks even more when you have to stay back 1 and a half hours later after everyone has gone home. you cannot imagine how stupid it feels, how cheated i feel. cheated in the sense that i should have gotten a d7, like if i had gotten a d7 i would just drop chinese, i am dead serious about this. chinese is a real burden. the best part is i got the most feared and fawned upon teacher out of the 3 teaching the retakers. like great, so much for retaking eh, it's like rubbing salt into my wounds.

'nuff said...