it's really weird that i'm pretty anti-cj now. don't get me wrong, i don't hate it, i really don't, it's just that i think that it's not a very good school for academic studies, especially the sci fac. i know this is really the opposite from what i felt last year. i suppose that well of emotions in me has evaporated since last year. when grace told me that she was going to cj, the first thought was, 'are you mad?'. come to think of it, i would have done the same thing if i were her, then again, i wouldn't have if i could go to ac or sa (or should i say do my combi there). 11 points, and here i am in ny. somehow, i don't hate it anymore, nothing in me repels me from the 'cheena' environment it was rumoured to have and i must say true, compared to ij. culture shock as grace calls it, i agree... but, this culture shock, is it good or bad? for me, i suppose it has broadened my mindset a whole lot, changed a lot of perspectives and hey, the english speaking people who think they are so cool 'cos they're big time anglophiles, i have to add they are sorely overrating themselves. oh well, i suppose society will have such a vast mix of people, that someday they'll see what singapore is made up of, it isn't just you and your little world of english-speaking-upper-middle-class-or-rich-kids that make up singapore. yea, you know that other people from other classes exist but, you won't mix right? yea, right, do you think singapore and it's people is an immiscible mixture? oh well, i seemed to have digressed quite a bit, but ya, that's my point somehow. these 2 years of wonderful experiences and new friendships forged - i won't forget them, similiarly i will never, ever, NEVER forget those days in ij.

okay, back to grace. i wish you all the best in cj, get your 4As at the end of your tenure there. hopefully we'll end up in the same uni - nus? missing you loads, all my ex-ij buddies also, love you all loads.

val: i really want to catch up with you soon again. tell me when you're free eh?

yan: hope you're doing fine... you look like you're adapting well to the 'new j1 crowd'. meet up soon ya?

pam: u toopid pig, someone said she'll call me and never did...

tan: hope you're doing fine man. you know when i'm at yck and i see those singapore rugby girls training, i'll think of you... be thankful i did! (before you say, only then you think of me?)

okay, other than that. i suppose like what grace says, cj for arts is really not bad, but it's society - they label you as a 20 pointer that didn't have a choice. oh well, stereotypes, i suppose society could do less of but sadly, it still lingers no matter how educated we become?

btw, that long para. i typed up there, i know not everyone are like that. but there are people who are like that, well, well... i suppose i was somewhat like that not to long ago. seriously, i'd never imagine myself going to ny, i never thought i could go there even, initial thought was - i'll end up in cj no matter what cos my Os will prob. suck la. in the end, cos i want to do bio, my choices were few and far between. so much for medicine man... at least, even if i don't do med in uni, i know i tried. maybe the sacrifice is to big but if you don't try, you'll never know and there'll always be this lingering thought of 'what if', too many 'what ifs' can eat you whole.