i think everybody feels this, paradox as it sounds, it really true.

think blogging. what do you think of? a free space on the web for you to rant, talk 'cock' some people might add and just a place where you're free to say whatever you want. at the beginning this seems real so, then more people get to know about your blog and hey, isn't that good? more people are reading the things i post, you feel especially good when the things you write need to be read and hey, it is being read afterall.

gradually, however, you begin to realise that you can post less and less freely; your brain having to filter whether you CAN write what you want to write. why? for fear that the person your bitching about (maybe) may read it, and hey, there's a darn high possibility of the person reading it! the internet, as vast as it may be is very very small; a few clicks here and there and wala your at someone's page (someone you know).

and the end result? people are unable to post what they truly feel sometimes, actually most of the time. don't you realise that too often a time we think about what we want to say before saying it and a blog is supposed to be the opposite, where we can write without hesistation and yet we're restricted as time passes, ironic i know, but isn't it true?

so the end result is so. the blog - a site where you can just write anything you want, a place where you seek solace and just an outlet for all the stress, inevitably leads to a 'stress outlet' or back to the real world somehow. and many people close their blogs because of that. i was just wondering, is there any other alternative to an online journal, with the same benefits and yet provide an anonymity?

i will brush up on this entry when i have to time. sigh... got so much crap to do man. this is a rushed entry, and i apologise for it, but there's hardly a time where i can find so much to type about...