how fast time flies

think back to the days when you were primary 1, think about the excitement of meeting new friends, about wearing a new uniform, for me the first day of school i was greeted by a sea of blue pinafores -> lovely sight! i still remember it till this day, not very clearly but i remember it nonetheless.

think about those times when you said to your friends 'i don't want to friend you already' -> and why? cos she didn't lend you her new eraser or didn't want to tell you her secret. i hardly remember saying that, maybe it was cos i wasn't an extrovert, until primary 4? i still remember the little 'best friends' i had, edith in primary 3, jessica in primary 4, as for primary 5 and 6? i remember sitting alone in the canteen and i do remember people like owie and all letting me join them. it's so weird that i remember it till now, the 2 friends i hung out with... stopped hanging out with me and hung out with this girl i didn't really like. it doesn't matter now though, i've grown older, and yes, more mature. maybe i should show this side of me often... the mature side, the terribly serious me, the reticent and laconic me.

seriously, if i were to erase my entire primary school life from my memory, it'll be fine... really. and why is that so? because i didn't have a superb primary school life, nothing for me to hold back to, nothing for me to reminsce about, except for maybe the innocent times, then again maybe not that innocent.

what i would never want to forget would be my secondary school days. i do agree that i would like to forget some events but my life would be totally different without them. like the person that i so liked -> ad, your someone i would never forget, never. i still remember not even opening my science textbook or others, but what i remember most was the science paper; the day before it when i was trying to do something related to you that i totally neglected the severity of the darn streaming exam and i ended up in a1, not s3 or s4, but a1. that is something i regret till this day...

but there are other things that i will never forget... perhaps i've said this before. that is the friendships that were forged and built. to my friends, my dear dear friends, i love you and cherish you, maybe i didn't seem to care much about the importance of friendships and all, but now i see things in a clearer light. you're so darn important that i won't know what i'd do without all of you... val, grace, yan, pam, tan, eve, etc... i still remember val having to put up with my nonsense of ad, i know you got irritated at times, i still remember talking to you at the wee hours of the night as you needed someone to talk to, i remember you thanking you, now i wish to thank you to, for letting me be there.

i do want to write more but this is no matter what i public blog, i'll pour out more when i feel that it's safe enough to do so. so for now, adieu.