i told myself that i must go find out more about studying abroad. like really go search for a college, costs that kind of thing. i seriously think i will have to retain. like i told someone: 'i think my luck is running out'. i admit i was darn lucky for some subjects lash year, like plainly studying for one topic only for a sub humans and faring not to bad overall. yea, maybe my well of luck has just run dry...

seriously, you must be going 'eh you must be joking lah'. but i'm dead serious, the amount of stuff i prepare ain't gonna pass me. darn, i can't even remember what the shit i read up. so in a nutshell, i doubt my chances of passing. it's like all odds against me.

even gp is a problem... i'm serious, i just write a good essay in that short period of time. i just can't... i need to walk around and think. but darn, it's an exam!

and no way am i going to waste one year retaining... no way! call me chicken or what but there is just too much pride involved and the social stigma. it's also a darn waste of time. but it's too late to change anything now. i'm like going to do 2 exam papers today, that's all i can do for my math. i do hope i get a d for my last-ditch attempt at salvaging my math. as for chem and bio, those 2 subs are darn unpredictable. as for chem, if they come out with loads of stoichiometry questions and calculation questions, not only will i not get an e, i doubt i can even get an ao pass. i'm serious... as for the bio, it's like the capricious weather, like it's thoroughly unpredictable.... you might go mug lah, sure can one! okay, try it in the a levels lah... sheer memorising can only get you as far as a d. and i haven't mugged much.

i'm not those idiots who say i don't mug in school but mug like shit at home. what you see is what you get... i'm a complete slacker with just an average iq.... that does put me at selective disadvantage doesn't it?