it's my third post today... haven't posted so much in one day for so long. this has been bugging me for quite a bit, just want to unleash it all out in words.

met tania and yan today. somehow i felt quite left out, i don't know. like not as close and familiar in terms as we were when we had night study. i have no idea why... maybe people just drift but for one case i know, it is pretty much artificially caused and not due to the factor of time.

I AM SICK AND TIRED of you giving me the cold shoulder. yes i know it's hard, yes i should be understanding but IT SUX. like, the time factor is already slowly and definitely eroding our friendship, with you being so cold and uncaring. HAH! in less than a year if we meet each other on the road we might just appear to be mere strangers. yes i know i'm exaggerating but it is so vexing that it irritates me to bits. i know i might sound unfeeling but hello, if i didn't care why the hell would it bug me so much. do you know what you're doing is surely eroding whatever friendship we might have left. just think about it...... no, don't try to forget me by making me out to be some mean fool because in that way you'll lose a friend too, you know what i am, you know what to do, why don't you TRY doing it? and not just attempt but if you have the determination, you'll succeed.

all i can give you are words, i know words are not enough... i don't know what else i can do........ tell me if you need any help, like ignorance isn't bliss in this case.