oh gosh i'm so tired... i have no idea why, calculating how much sleep i got, that would be 7 or 8 hours and i'm still sleepy. maybe it's because my body is accustomed to having too much sleep. woke up at 1030 today, had tuition at 11am you see... well, does it sound funny? a jc student having tuition... i need someone to push me, really... if not i won't do anything, like now... i told myself i don't know lots of chem stuff but i'm just so not bothered to find out stuff and all. later i guess, procrastination is deadly. well, to grace, you'll do well for your Os, don't worry! you're one smart ass and at least you can cram stuff the last minute and remember. okay, school's gonna start on wednesday, how i dred going back to ny... better get used to it man, i'll be stuck there for one and a half more years.

the school uniform sucks, so as i said, it'll make me study so i won't retain. hahaa, can't bear to be in the eeky uniform for one more year lah! and since it's so digustingly mud brown/ diluted milo (as shang zhi calls it) i doubt i'll be spending much time in town either. i won't want to be caught dead in that brown shit... oh ya, i thought of ad yest., about how stupid and foolish i was last time, how i still am, oh geez, i'm just too passive in a lot of things. like, sometimes i feel i don't try hard enough for things i want, like even appealing to a jc and stuff, either that or maybe it doesn't mean that much to me, therefore i don't pursue it hard enough.

but, isn't that me? the lazy slacker and timid lil mouse.