luck

i can't believe my recent spate of bad luck.

it seemed to follow after i got my 'o' level results. like really...

first it was postings, i couldn't get into aj or ac (due to the damned bonus pts). i got into ny, which i accepted with gritted teeth. now, about my class, somehow or other i got posted to the worst, 3a class of my subject combination. like hello? you know what this means? i will be stuck with a bunch of chinese educated assholes. yea, like fuck man. so what am i supposed to do? appeal? i am desperately at a loss now. because for one, i think i have trememdously bad luck at appeals and how am i going to convince the principal (or whoever) to transfer me to a better class? like, yea, i want my bio, chem, econs and math. no way am i going to just pass chem and math, i want to pass 3 a levels okay. like -knock knock-, you people at ny are destroying my wonderful future ahead. now, all i can hear are thunder and see occasional lightning bolts, other than that everything around me is pitch black. like yes, i am going insane. this is totally unfair, i'm just asking for you people to give me what i can take, 4 subs for 11 pts or below. why must you people change it this year? like, what the fuck is your problem?? first it was cj, now ny, i might as well go to some down in the dumps jc (like i'm already not...). oh geez, try to 'crawl into my skin and walk around in it'. like look from my perspective and see... know why i want to do 4As, why... because i believe i can, i know i can, what is your problem folks. i hate my life, i totally hate it. i don't even want to walk into the school again, but i have to... 'cos i don't have a choice. i'm like a ball being kicked about... and it isn't funny when you're me.