'we are heirs of a glorious kingdom'

i'm actually sad i can't go back to cj cos i can't take bio there. regrets, too many 'if onlys' to think of, so i shan't think of what could have happened, like with the -ed, it's in the past. i might not enjoy the 2 yrs of my life in the jc i'll be in now but i know i'll work (i guess) no matter how bad the environment (academic) is in ny. although ny is better than cj in terms of ranking, i rather go back to cj. it's like all my friends are there, val, yan, geri, bong, suz, gen, tricia, cindy, andrea, iris, mel, like lots and lots of ij girls. and everything is so familiar, the toilets, like i know where all of the toilets are located in the school. like which teacher to run away from 'cos she'll catch you for your socks, oh geez. it's like everything is so familiar and i don't feel out of place. i hate the feeling of being 'not wanted', ok, that's a bit extremist, but it's something like that. i guess most of the feelings i'm feeling now is self-created. like i'm making the jc i'm in now to be some really lousy jc, with really horrible facilities (this point is true though) and all.....

i really hate the pae and jae shit. like why must we be put in a jc for the first 3 months, get so damn comfy and then have to leave, it's like, wth? honestly, lots of my ex classmates feel the same way, it sucks alright, having to adapt to a totally new environment when you just did so like less than 3 months ago.... and you gotta repeat the entire process, forging new friendships, getting to know each other better, new combis, new classes, new school. like it totally sucks....... singapore's education system is definitely flawed, then again, which education system isn't? oh well, i guess i'll stop being so cynical and look on the bright side. at least i can continue to do well in gp, math and econs.