sometimes i wonder, if it was better for me to have done badly. like get 17 or 18 and the only place i would go would be cjc. honestly i rather end up in cj then the school i was posted to. really.... i wonder what i should do now, appeal maybe. but like, i'm just sitting here, doing nothing but typing into this lifeless blog of mine that hardly anyone visits. dreams, what dreams, aspirations, what aspirations, all gone somehow. geez, i'm lost, very lost, confused yes. i can't believe it....