quixotic (2. motivated by an idealism that overlooks practical considerations), maybe....

2.33pm on a rainy afternoon. dark clouds looming in the skies. the thought of postings and my choice combi. has been constantly plaguing my mind. should i just opt for a combi which i can get more easily? i don't know, my mind's in a whirl.... is it bad to be stubborn or determined? i have no idea..... yea, that's me the one without a backbone. questions start popping up and i wonder whether i've made the right choice. is my career choice wrong? i hardly even know what it requires, except for lots and lots of hardwork, physically and mentally. maybe i do, but not enough. i have no idea, ideals and reality are two different worlds. interest vs abilities.....

taking this perspective into a light hearted account, as winnie the pooh says it, 'oh bother'.