i do not relish the thought of going to a new school, a new environment... i'm not excited at the thought of meeting new friends, having fun during orientation. instead, i feel this enromous dread of going to school. maybe it's just me, i just don't want to go to a jc that i chose anymore, yes my third choice. maybe it's because i thought so confidently that i could get my 1st or at least my second choice. but eh answer is no, due to the fact that stupid me didn't take higher chinese (and passed it) and i failed to attain an a1 or 2 for my cca grade. marvellous! because of the stupid bonus points, i am thrown to some stupid chinese mama school. i really don't relish the thought of having to walk into the nanyang junior college gates tomorrow. i mean, if i got 15 and had say 4 points cut off to ny (due to affiliation -2 and cca) i wouldn't mind but i got 11. like i know people who got 11 who ended up in aj and people who got 14 that ended up in ac. it's this bitterness which i find so hard to swallow.