i am...

terribly petrified. really, really scared.

in 2 days time, yes, just 2 days, i will be getting my results back.

i really wish for 10, it would have been possible if i didn't screw my papers up (esp. english and a math) but i don't know now.... it was my english and e math that pulled down my l1r5 for prelims anyway. yes, just 2 subject can really mess up a nice l1r5 score. i'm serious, dead serious....

sometimes i wonder, if i get 17, should i be content with my lot and stay in cj. honestly, after being in cj for the first 2 months or so, i won't mind staying there, then again, there are two other factors to consider.

1. my pride - i have a really strong sense of pride in me, cj is obviously not a choice jc in many peoples minds, i hate to get responses like, cj? or oh tt jc and blah blah.... sounds like a stupid reason right? but, yea, i'm pretty flawed anyway.

2. environment - i know for myself i have to be an environment where everybody mugs. peer pressure, i don't want to do badly, pushing myself to study too. i lack self-discipline, seriously.

well, i would very much like to choose and not be 'forced' to go to a jc 'cos of my l1r5, 10 pts. oh please!

hmm, you must be thinking, what is this idiot thinking. someone who didn't study very hard expects to get 10. well, i know i didn't mug like anything, if i did, i'll be expecting 7 distinctions or what. honestly, ij girls have cut their l1r5 by half or less (8 or 9) in the short period from prelims to Os. it is possible, but, i was thinking, i can't really remember myself mugging. i just hope, all my marks remain the same, except for subjects i'm really supposed to get distinctions for and i'll get my 10, really.

english - a2
e math - a2
a math - a2
science (phy/chem) - a1
lit - a2
geog - a2
ss/hist - b3

okay, that's 11, but it's somewhere around that. i'm crossing my fingers, that the two papers i screwed up, it doesn't reflect that much in the marks.

hopefully....

to all pals getting their results too, all the best!

(by alphabetical order)

bren, bri, carol, denise, eve, geri, liying, liz, pam, serene, tan, tracy, rong, val, yan

(sorry if i forgot anyone, my memory is wavering due to anxiety....)

love ya all...