it is just a week to chinese new year. i remember when i was small i used to look forward to it, counting the days and all. now i'm not really excited about it, not one bit. i don't look forward to eating all the tidbits and answering questions from nosey aunties. i can just imagine the possible scenarios, like 'where are you studyingnow?' or 'which jc are you in' and i'll answer in a whisper, 'cjc' or 'cj'. bleah, i really hate feeling like a zero. cj's not bad but it's really the stereotypical mindset of people. like i used to think that cj is really faeces or in short, like shit. but basically it isn't that bad. imagine if i went to yjc, srjc, mjc, they might even go, 'huh? got such a jc ar?' this is so degrading. oh, never mind that they will associate me with the word stupid, dumb, lazy and all, yes it is my fault that i screwed up my english paper so badly and that i really suck at my e math. yes, it is all my fault.

shall end here, going to church now...... gonna pray that my O level results turns out well.